Monday, June 30, 2008

7 DPO and I think I am...

Pregnant... here is why:

Jeff has been feeling sick. He gets dizzy and nauseous and he is convinced that I am pregnant, which is apparently the only logical reason why he feels that way. He has lost appetite... very unlike Jeff. Has had bad headaches AND he has lost his balance a few times. Poor guy!

If I'm not pregnant why is he sick right?

My opinion is: I think he is pregnant since he has symptoms.

Gotta love the man!

But on a serious note. Maybe I am pregnant after all, my boobs look different. I've taken pictures to be able to compare size and color. What do you think? Click here to see pics

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Happy Birthday Papi!

Today my dad is turning 55 years old!

I wish you could hear him say "today is my birthday" in his cute Spanish accent.... so adorable!

My mom is out of the country so she couldn't celebrate his birthday with him. When she returns we will make sure we cut a cake with the full family present. I hope we don't confuse my dad though, he might wonder what day his birthday really is.... Errr, he is not too good with days or dates... And that's because he is a workaholic. He works with cars (bodywork) and is so focused he doesn't pay attention to dates, lets just say he works on the weekend for fun. The man loves his work, God bless him! We, his kids, took him out to lunch and then he went to Home Depot to shop.(Men and Home Depot!)

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

And the waiting begins...

...............Once again...............

I'm 3dpo now. I have 11 more days to go and I hope I don't drive Jeff too crazy. I probably will though, but its OK I'm sure he will survive. I have toughen him up over the years so he will be just fine. Me? Not so much. I just want to know already! I guess I'm too impatient.

According to my chart, the day I should test is July 9Th... it would be cool since that's my tiny niece's first birthday. I seriously doubt I will wait that long. The first time I got my BFP I was 11dpo, so I can see myself POAS before Zamari's birthday. Its really nice of my chart to choose her birthday though, isn't it?

And another interesting tidbit.. according to my O day, my due date would be March 16Th, 2009. Why is it interesting? Well because its my other niece's birthday. Hannah will be turning 8 next year, she is Jeff's brother's daughter. I know I could say my brother-in-law's daughter, but which brother-in-law? See? I had to specify.

Lets wait, if we must, and see what happens.....

Monday, June 23, 2008

Catch that eggie!

Can I tell you about excitement? OK, let me tell you. I POAS this morning, inserted it in my monitor, waited and waited, then it informed me that my fertility jumped from "high" to "peak".

The eggie in the monitor was the most beautiful digital egg I've ever seen!

I never thought that seeing a digital egg formed merely from my pee would make my day. And let me tell you, I had a fantastic day. Nothing and no one could have ruined it even if they tried. I could have hugged strangers and tell them all about my pee's accomplishment, but I didn't think it would impress them so I didn't. Soon though, when my belly is popping they will care, but at that point I'll be tough on them. If they didn't care about the beginning of my pregnancy, why should I be nice? I can always blame my b*tchiness on hormones, but you (Internet) and I know the real deal. Umm, I know I'm talking crazy here... but I have to stay positive and *hope* that I will get pregnant this cycle. Yes, just like all of my others cycles, but this one is different trust me... well actually lets just trust my extra positivity.

Now lets just help Jeff's guys and cheer them along: Photobucket

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Still waiting

I've had some progress in each "project" I'm working on, but not finished with any of them. Here is what's happened:

1- House: The contract was signed by both parties.Yay! Now we are waiting to get everything ready and move on to closing. That's going to probably take a while.
2- Birthdays: Today we went to Josh's birthday party in New Jersey and had a great time with Jeff's side of the family. Now for my side of the family, I'm making a flan to take to Anali's birthday party tomorrow.
3- Exercise: Errr... not too much of that happening this week since we've been running around with the whole house contract thing and also the babydancing.... actually I change that answer, I think sexercise counts, no?
4- Sex and the City- We did go to see the movie on Tuesday, but it was packed so I haven't seen it yet. The only seats available were at the front row and I was not having that. I have to wait for that too =(

5- Ovulation: I've been on "high" for fertility for a few days now, but I'm still waiting to actually reach "peak" and then finally O.

On the last one, I'd personally like to blame my Clear Blue Fertility Monitor for not "peaking" instead of my own body. Not that I'm choosing sides or anything, but if I get my body angry I might not O at all and we don't want that, do we? Nope! We need that egg to drop and I would appreciate it if it informed my monitor that its dropping tomorrow. (That's just a message for my body in case its reading this).

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

What Nobody Told me About Trying To Conceive

As I was looking for my resume (don't ask), I found this list that I saved on November 4, 2007. I didn't realize I was already this obsessed, it just goes to show that I can be a little mysterious even to myself =)

I guess someone posted this on the nest and I "forced" myself to save it. Since I agreed with it 100% I decided to save it on my blog too... just in case I change computers... you never know... Anyway, here goes: (Keep in mind, these are not all necessarily my thoughts)

What Nobody Told me About TTC

  • That unprotected sex doesn't necessarily lead to pregnancy. (Sucks for me)
  • That my sex life would start to resemble a science experiment.
  • That the longer I try to conceive, the more pregnant women spring up around me.
  • That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person.
  • That one day I wouldn't mind checking my cervical fluid or cervix position to see if it is my fertile period.
  • That I should have gone to medical school like my mom wanted, because I've had to do so much medical research up to now just to figure out what was wrong with me, and now I might as well be an M.D.
  • That I would know more about the female reproductive system and menstrual cycle than most of the doctors I go to.
  • That living my life in 2 week increments would be the normal thing to do.
  • That I never knew how much I wanted to see those 2 pink lines...until only one shows up every month.
  • That simply relaxing will NOT get me pregnant. The husband has to do some work too! Don't you hate it when people tell you that!?
  • That I have no control over some of the goals I set...
  • That wishing really hard for something doesn't make it happen, and staring at my Basal Body Temperature chart doesn't make it change!
  • That one day my husband would know so much about how my uterus functions and what it looks like from the inside.
  • That a pregnancy doesn't always equal a baby.
  • That miscarriage is so common.
  • That I would wish we had started trying to conceive earlier.
  • That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.
  • That it wouldn't happen the first time I didn't use birth control like I was led to believe in school.
  • That I wouldn't know how important a baby was to me until it took so long, and I realized what I was willing to go through to make it happen.
  • That family would act like getting pregnant was a competition between all the young couples in the family, and the first one to get pregnant "wins".
  • That my husband is the most wonderful and caring man! (OK, Jeff gets extra points on this one!)
  • That it is insensitive to ask people when they are going to try having a baby! They might be trying and having difficulties just like me!
  • That women who do get pregnant are so very blessed!
  • That I could have been rich by saving the money I spent on condoms & birth control pills, which were obviously unnecessary.
  • That I would be happy to see abundant cervical fluid and tell my husband about it.
  • That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico.
  • That had I bought stock in Clearblue Easy Ovulation & Pregnancy Tests, I'd have my mansion on St. Pete's Beach in Florida by now.
  • That having my period show up would make me cry, no matter whose bathroom I was in.
  • That it does not get easier ... each cycle is harder than the last.
  • That I wouldn't want to hold or see some one's baby because it just hurts way too much. (not personally, I find it inspiring!)
  • That a group of "strangers" who I will probably never meet, have now become my "best friends" when it comes to trying to conceive.
  • That I would splash urine on my face while taking apart an home pregnancy test in the hopes that there really was a 2nd pink line hiding in it. (Um, not me again, but its funny)
  • That talking about sex with fellow women who are trying to conceive would be so easy.
  • That one day all of this will make me stronger. It already has, hasn't it?
  • That I would have NO TOLERANCE for pregnant women's complaints about morning sickness, weight gain, etc...
  • That no one I know would have any understanding as to how I feel.
  • That my temper and patience are much shorter than I ever thought.
  • That infertility is not as rare as I was led to believe.
  • That I am very bitter towards unmarried accidental pregnancies, and slightly bitter towards married accidental pregnancies.
  • That someone I thought to be my best friend would hurt me by saying that she was sick of hearing about my efforts at trying to conceive. (Not Bee, but I don't talk much about it anyway. Thank God I escape on the internet with my issue)
  • That some people just say the wrong things... A little too often.
  • That I would be so sad and ashamed.
  • That when my period shows up I would feel broken and dysfunctional.
  • That my friendship with my real life girlfriends would suffer because they got pregnant after being off the pill for 3 weeks.
  • That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things I will ever have to go through.
  • That I HAVE to have sex even though I don't feel like it, but because my fertility monitor says HIGH or PEAK.
  • That people would pity me and feel sorry for me.
  • That I would meet such a wonderful group of people online, that I can share my sorrow, frustration and fears with.
  • That I would feel stupid and naive for thinking a pregnancy would occur "when it was supposed to"
  • That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so badly.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Upcoming schedule

  1. Work... this is the only downer of the schedule, so I figured I could list it now and get it out of the way. Who in their right mind wants to work in this awesome weather?

  2. Hopefully sign our contract tomorrow... did I mention our offer got accepted for the house? So excited and freaked out!

  3. Pray everything goes as planned with the house.

  4. Hopefully I can finally watch Sex and the City, I'm dying to see it and I heard it was great.

  5. Go present shopping for both my niece and my nephew. My beautiful darling Anali is turning 10 on Sunday and adorable little Josh is turning 4 next Tuesday. Time flies!

  6. Lots of Babydancing!!! Jeff is getting some this week, lucky guy! Then again I'm basing this on usual cycles, my body might still be screwed up, so for this week and maybe next week I'm working on

    As of this weekend, I made sure I had some Margaritas. I'm hoping they are the last I'll have for a long long time, boy I enjoyed them!

Monday, June 9, 2008

Family time

This weekend was crazy busy, well at least for my lifestyle anyway. Needless to say: I am tired. Starting from last Thursday when I left home at 7:45 AM and got home around 8:15PM from work, it has been non-stop until now... and I'm drained!

Friday I got up early did the whole work thing and then went to the City at night for my brother-in-law's fun birthday get together at Dave and Busters. We got home around 2:30 AM only for me to get up again at 6:45 AM to go to work on Saturday. I really couldn't get up one minute earlier, I love the snooze button! Got home and got dressed again to go to my cousin's bridal shower... speaking of which I have an interesting-shaped lollipop in my purse.... maybe I could have it later (not sharing!) The women were inside my aunt's house during the entertainment session and the men were having a good time drinking outside. We had fun mingling later and then once again we got home around 2 AM from the shower.

Then on Sunday we woke up around 9:30 AM, we slept in a bit and it felt good! We had some coffee and had various conversations regarding our future plans, you probably think our future baby and you are kinda right.... but not quite. Its something for the baby. We are now looking at houses, and we were trying to make some decisions. A few hours flew by talking about this, and OMG its exciting and stressful! Then out of the blue my door bell rings, and it was my parents who came to visit. It was right on time because I had just started making lunch, super sense I tell ya! Then about 30 minutes later the door bell rings again and it was Jeff's mom. We had a lovely afternoon with our parents. I should mention that we rarely get visitors since we live a little further away from our families, but it was a nice surprise to have both our parents show up. It was good too since they hadn't seen each other in a while. After my parents left around 4PM we watched some TV with my mother-in-law, and then went out to dinner, movie and ice cream. We ended up going to bed around midnight after she left. Why? because both needed some Internet time for the day. Its just the way it is, no Internet no bed. We are Internet addicts!

Also, since I made a commitment to exercise, it was a bit tricky squeezing in some time for the workout, but I was able to and I'm so proud of me. Good Shanny, such a good girl, good job! (somebody has to pat my back, no?)

We had a busy weekend with both sides of the family, I worked, I worked out, got home way later than usual two nights in a row, and we made a decision on a house. We placed an offer and now we wait, the chances aren't too good though since there are other's fighting for it (bastards!). And now that I've had my internet time (don't have access at work) I think I'm ready to crash. See ya!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

New plan....

This cycle I plan on changing one thing.

Yes only one thing. I'm not capable to stop obsessing about getting PG so that part will continue. Since I started TTC I stopped working out. I admit its because I figured I will gain weight anyway, so why bother? I know, I know... shame on me! I also thought I would get pregnant right away, I mean the rest of the women in my family are very fertile, so why not me? No, seriously.... why not me? Alright lets forget that question and move on. Like I said, I stopped working out expecting to expect but I gained weight instead. Not one bit was baby weight, darn!

My new plan is to work out. I've been a little iffy about it because I didn't want to "stress" my body and delay ovulation. At this point I just think that it will happen if its meant to happen. If it doesn't that's fine, I want to feel better about myself at the very least. I'm already taking my temperature every morning and will start my POAS routine very soon to catch ovulation, so if I O I wont miss it. But I do miss feeling better about my body. I need to exercise and that's what I'm going to do.

I need to obsess about something new, so why not about losing weight right? It is who I am, I pick one thing at a time and I learn/do anything & everything related to it. I need to control whats going on in my life and since being obsessive about one thing isn't good, I plan on balancing it with another obsession.... personally I think its a brilliant plan. Wish me luck!