2 sacs= TWINS!
The guilt is killing me!
Not because I didn't tell you guys or my family
but because I feel I'm being a bad mother already.
I don't want one baby to feel I'm favoring the other baby more.
And the secret stops me from writing what I'm really feeling.
Besides how am I supposed to record the heartbeats and growths
for my own notes on my blog if I'm keeping it a secret?
I figured I would eventually say something like
"well you saw my one baby, now here is my other baby"
but I've been avoiding my own blog because I see just one
sac knowing there is another sac and that certainly
made me feel like a horrible mother.
I'm sorry babies, I love you both!
And to those who called to ask and I said its one baby,
why would you ask if you knew I wouldn't say?
You made me feel worse, even if I brought it upon myself lol
I thought I would be able to keep it in no problem. Didn't happen.
I know I said I couldn't trust Jeff's big mouth because
of his excitement but I didn't know that I would be
feeling guilty so I'm the one spilling it.
Though you can imagine Jeff's smile
when I told him I was going to share the news. He wanted bagels,
so I'm sure the bagel guy knows by now.
And yes, his laugh attack started as soon as we saw
the 2 sacs which was immediately after
the dildo cam made his grand entrance, luckily Jeff
is fine now.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DO NOT SHARE ANYTHING
you read here
with anyone who knows me. In real life or Facebook or wherever.