Shall we talk names?

No, we shall not.

I'm not trying to be mean or anything.

But its not happening. Yet.

I thought about posting about this before but I've been asked

a few times already and decided to explain myself.

As of now we have 50% of the names picked out.

Jeff is currently having trouble picking between two names

for our little boy.

Regardless,

we aren't planning on sharing them until they are born.

I know some people think its rude but I think its even more rude

when they offer their opinions on your choice and I really don't
understand why they do this. Thanks, but no thanks.

Once they are born and they are introduced into the world

as "little Shanny" and "little Jeff"

it will be done and they can't say anything.

Don't be worried though, I swear their names

are not weird. They are just for mommy and daddy to know.

Well, when Jeff finally decides...

then it will be for us to know for sure =)

I will say that the names we have in mind have always been

the names we loved. We didn't have to go crazy trying to figure them out.

Except for Jeff making the final call on our boy's name, of course.

He might want to wait until he sees him to see "who" he looks more like.

And let me tell you, this is seriously annoying
cause I can't call either of them by their names yet.

Nor can I personalize their nursery.

Yes, I know hers but it seems unfair to use her name and not his.

I have an "equal opportunity" complex.

If all else fails we will just call them by their original names:

Twin A and Twin B

and call it a day!

24 weeks A.K.A 6 months A.K.A. holy crap my babies can survive outside!

I don't know where the time went!

It feels like only yesterday I came out of the pregnancy closet and today my babies can actually survive outside the womb. Not that I want them to come out yet, God please don't do that, but its amazing that I've reached this far. Even more amazing is trying to figure out how I'll make the next three months... I am HUGE. People actually think I'm ready to give birth any second now.... ummmm no...

I totally smack the refrigerator door into my belly once or twice a week. Not hard, don't judge, but the door does close itself back. And no I don't remember that it happened before when I go to open it so I'm not as careful as I should be. Even if I was who can judge properly when you look like this:

Ok, maybe not.. its kind of a bad angle, right? Right??

RIGHT???

 Jeff was having too much fun with my belly pics...

which is why I do them myself.. you can't trust that guy.

and since you can't really see it, I want to clear up

that I do have 2 boobs... don't be fooled by the pic!

Here are my (kinda) better pictures:

21 weeks

22 weeks

23 weeks

See the boxes behind my butt on the tread mill?

That's another reason why my time is flying by. We are doing some

construction in the basement since it was fully unfinished.

By "we" I mean Jeff and my brother Danny.

And by that I mostly mean my brother Danny.

Jeff, I dunno what he does, he is not quite the construction guy

but he helps and tries to do what he can. Me?

I just supervise while holding my belly. Very hard work I tell ya.

By the way, that my friends is the nursery where I take my pics.

Doesn't look much like one, I know.

Since we needed a storage type area we were using that room,

but as of this weekend I had them take out the crap from there

and now its nicely sitting in my dining room

along with baby furniture, my glider with its ottoman, 

 a bunch of boxes of wood floor for the basement

AND with 3 months worth of mail that I haven't sort through.

What? sorting mail is tiring for a pregnant woman, I swear.

Not to mention dangerous....

My babies need all my blood so paper cuts are being avoided.

I do hope time goes a little slower though,

I need to be able to breathe in all my pregnancy experiences

and hurry up to get the nursery and play area basement ready.

And apparently I also need to get my thoughts together better,

this post is all over the place.

But to pretty it up a bit I'll add some new baby pics at

23 weeks 4 days:

Boy

Girl

Oh, and as of the last appointment on June 30th,

they were each weighing 1lb 6oz,

and growing perfectly =)

Check me out!!!

I am too good for my own blog that I can't even post here anymore. Instead I went over to my lovely Internet friend Ashley's blog: "For the Love of Shoes... and  A Baby, too"  and made my first ever guest post!

If you haven't checked out her blog yet then you totally should run over right now! She is one of my IVF buddies and I'm happy to say that on her second attempt she became a success. She is currently 12 weeks pregnant with an adorable cupcake that I swear is a girl, we have about six more weeks until we find out... ok, until she finds out. I've just been rooting for her for so long the "we" came out naturally =)

Thank you Ashley for allowing me to post on your awesome blog!!!!

And to the rest of my readers... if you are still around and not too upset with me... and happen to read that post you will find out why I've been MIA. I have about 5 different posts I've working on over the past 2 weeks that are unfinished because I forget (very quickly) what my point was.... not to mention that my work hours, gestational diabetes cooking/eating schedule, exhaustion and lack of sleep have been getting in the way. Forgive me? Please! With sugar splenda on top? and before you make a harsh decision on forgiving me, please keep in mind that I have been reading your blogs from my phone, I just can't comment from it.... I'll try to do better, I promise!

Happy 4th of July!!!

Edited to add the guest post:


Pregnancy brain...


I would like to start by thanking Ashley for letting me confuse her readers with my thoughts. And at the same time apologize for it.

If you happen to check out my blog, you will notice the lack of posts. The reason for that is simple: pregnancy brain. I have a serious case of it and all I can pray for is for it not to be something permanent, because if it is I feel really bad for my kids. Most of my days are wasted because the only acitivities in me head are brain farts. Don't feel bad for me though, I'm so oblivious to it that it makes me a happy camper. In fact, I think you would all benefit of an hour or two a day of pure brain fart acitivity. Try it first, thank me later.

The biggest issue I've had with this condition is that it has made me forget that I'm pregnant. Ironic right? After months of wondering why I haven't had the "holy crap, I'm pregnant" moment, I finally realized that the culprit is pregnancy brain. I've probably had the realization a few times but how would I know if I can't remember? I'm going crazy, I've found myself going to put toilet paper rolls in the refrigerator, ordering lunch and immediately begin to wonder what I'll be eating, I also happened to put on 2 bras once, one black & one beige and nope I didn't notice the clash of colors. And, and, AND if that wasn't shameful enough, I've given pregnancy brain to my poor husband Jeff. Two days ago he found himself pouring orange juice into the sink instead of his glass. Now, who keeps who sane?

I also can't seem to form a sentence correctly. My ability to talk has been taken over by mumbling, and I may or may not forget what I'm mumbling about in the middle of a conversation... or sometimes even in the beginning... all I know is I'm surely not impressing anyone. Awesome.

Oh, and Ashley? Darling, I hope you don't get as bad as me. I mean, you are already showing some signs of losing some brain activity by allowing me to guest post here, but I'm sure your readers will forgive you. And please don't fear, even if you do get a lil pregnancy stupidity, trust me, all you need is to do 3 sets of brain farts a day and you'll be none-the-wiser.

I had a date with my ex-lover

After Jeff left for work yesterday, I hurried up to go meet up with DC.

It was really nice to catch up and to get intimate once again, you know, for old times sake. It really only lasted about 30 seconds but it was wonderful.

DC a.k.a. Dildo Cam and I had an ongoing affair for quite some time. You may or may not remember reading about it, all I know is I felt like he was seeing other women so I cut him out of my life completely... until yesterday. And let me tell you, it was the best encounter yet!

Before we became, ahem, intimate, I did get a chance to have a normal over the tummy ultrasound. The tech (Heather) showed me the babies and I can tell by their expressions that they were quite happy to see mommy. How do I know? Well because those 2 fresh kids of mine did what they always do: showed me their little "thingys" first! As soon as they are born, I'm going to have to teach them to stop flashing people. Wicked little twins!

Now back to the good stuff, she also checked my cervix from the tummy ultrasound, which was the main reason for my appointment, and was happy with it. But its mandatory to do a vaginal ultrasound at this point in pregnancy to see what's up with the cervix. Before the dildo cam made his entrance, she was telling me that my cervix was "Gorgeous", that in all her years she never saw such a long cervix and that it was "absolutely stunning". Why thank you, I'm pretty proud myself :)

She then left to get a doctor while I undressed to better flash them (I learned from my kids), and when they returned she showed the doctor my cervix and he said "wow, that's a great cervix!" she in turn responded "its impressive, isn't it?", and they smiled at each other while I blushed. Less than 30 seconds I tell ya and good bye dildo cam.

By the way, a long cervix means that there is a GREAT chance of pre-term labor NOT happening, which is wonderful for a twin pregnancy. On the other hand, a long cervix also means a greater chance of having to have a C-section (for single or multiple pregnancy), which just upped my already high chances of that happening. I guess we will see.... as long as they are born healthy, I'll take whatever comes my way....... And then I'll put some clothes on them so they can cut back on the flashing =)

Now Playing: 4D Babies... with extra scenes... (get your own popcorn)

Who wants to see see our Alien Babies in 4D?????

ME!

And JEFF!

Ok, that's a given I know, but now you can see them too!

We went yesterday to a 4D ultrasound facility to get video and pics of the twins at 21 weeks (out of pocket), and it includes another session later on in the pregnancy, cool right? (say yes)

And because we are so nice and very proud parents we are sharing with the Internet world. Admission ticket: $0.00. But it will take up your time so I'm giving you some options...

You can see:

1-The videos we took so that you can hear all the madness that we were saying. They are long so I don't expect you to watch them.

I'm not including the DVD given to us because the file is way too big.

Or

2-The bonus: pics right on your screen of the babies and my 19 & 20 weeks belly pics.

You are welcome =)

Option #1:

Starring: Our Twins!

Background commentary provided by:

Ultrasound technician

Jeff

Shanny

Jeff's mom

My mom and dad

My sister Jenny.

The first video is our son.

The second video is our daughter:

Option #2:

Our Daughter

Our Son

My 19 week belly pic

My 20 week belly pic

I know I'm pregnant but am I REALLY pregnant? Like really, really?

Today I'm 20 weeks or 5 months pregnant, allegedly......

Even though I'm more than halfway there (for twins), I cannot believe that I am pregnant. In my head I still don't know that I am pregnant, Ok, I know but I don't know know. So far I haven't experienced that "holy crap" moment....

Not when I was puking my guts out.
Not when I see my belly growing about an inch every second.
Not when I prick my fingers & follow a strict diet to deal with Gestational Diabetes.
Not when I pee a million times a day and night. Especially night.
Not when I feel them moving.
Not when I see them during the ultrasounds.
Not at all.

I'm just here, easy peasy growing two humans like nothing happened. And I do mean that. I feel like I'm one of the most graceful pregnant women out there, of course the fact that I don't "know I am" might have something to do with it, but I am pretty good considering....I think. Am I looking for a pat on the back for being a good girl? Not really, but I wouldn't mind it.... (Jeff). I'm just so blessed and thankful for these babies that I imagine if anyone asked me how I was doing while puking I'd be giving them the biggest (disgusting) smile of my life with two thumbs up. That being said, I'm not into puking anymore so don't be scared to ask.

I wonder, would I have been like this had I not struggled with infertility for so long? I probably don't want to know the answer.... I just need to get myself in gear and knock it into my head that I am expecting. And if you think its bad that I don't know I am pregnant don't even ask about the fact that they are: A- Twins and B- Boy and Girl. I mean, get outta here! There is no way, no way!!!

Of course none of that stops me from being scared. I haven't made one purchase for them yet, not one. Don't get me wrong I'm incredibly attached and in love but I guess I feel like it would be a jinx, I don't know. I can't exactly blame any of this on pregnancy brain or even my prolactin brain tumor, my brain is just plain twisted. I'm petrified of making a commitment of something I don't know even know is happening to me, God help me!

THE WINNER IS...... and completely unrelated, check out my kids too!

Comment number 14

aka:

Tiffany!!!

She is now the proud owner of this ipod cozy:

Lots of thanks to my sister-in-law Zaira for making it for me (and Tiffany)

If you feel left out feel free to check out her etsy store, just clicky on her name =)

Oh, and check out the new u/s pics from today at 19 weeks 4 days

to the top right of your screen ~~~~>

Everything is great:

 Girl's heartbeat was at 130bpm

Boy's heartbeat was at 136bpm

And once again congrats to Tiffany!!!