Sunday, February 28, 2010

I don't wanna be a bad mom.... here is the FULL ultrasound pic


2 sacs= TWINS!

The guilt is killing me!
Not because I didn't tell you guys or my family
but because I feel I'm being a bad mother already.
I don't want one baby to feel I'm favoring the other baby more.
And the secret stops me from writing what I'm really feeling.
Besides how am I supposed to record the heartbeats and growths
for my own notes on my blog if I'm keeping it a secret?

I figured I would eventually say something like
"well you saw my one baby, now here is my other baby"
but I've been avoiding my own blog because I see just one
sac knowing there is another sac and that certainly
made me feel like a horrible mother.
I'm sorry babies, I love you both!

And to those who called to ask and I said its one baby,
why would you ask if you knew I wouldn't say?
You made me feel worse, even if I brought it upon myself lol
I thought I would be able to keep it in no problem. Didn't happen.
I know I said I couldn't trust Jeff's big mouth because
of his excitement but I didn't know that I would be
 feeling guilty so I'm the one spilling it.
Though you can imagine Jeff's smile
when I told him I was going to share the news. He wanted bagels,
so I'm sure the bagel guy knows by now.

And yes, his laugh attack started as soon as we saw
the 2 sacs which was immediately after
the dildo cam made his grand entrance, luckily Jeff
is fine now.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DO NOT SHARE ANYTHING 
you read here
with anyone who knows me. In real life or Facebook or wherever.
Thank you!

53 comments:

  1. Jeff aka Mucho MachoFebruary 28, 2010 at 1:10 PM

    Wait, we're having twins!!!??? Ummmm, honey, need anything at the bagel store? lol

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  2. Shut up shut up shut up shut up!!!!!
    I am so so so so so so so excited! WOOOOHOOOO!
    I can't believe it. Oh my goodness - and now you have me crying like a baby.
    Congrats my friend! I JUST KNEW IT!

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  3. OMG OMG OMG SHAN N MUCHO MACHO MUCHACHO CONGRATS SHAN IM CRYING THE KIDS ARE LAUGHING AT ME RITE NOW BUT IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY I WISH I COULD GIVE U A HUG RITE NOW LUUUUUUUUUUUUVVVVVVVVVVVV UUUUUUUUU SIS.....



    JEN

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  4. Awe, I'm so happy for you!! Congrats! =)

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  5. Wow Shanny, wow!!!!!
    This is so awesome, I'm in shock and I'm so happy, congrats :)

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  6. Wooohoooo Shanny and Jeff! I thought you had some hints in the other post but I was confused, now I'm beyond happy! I hope Jeff is breathing :)

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  7. Yay Congrats! That is sooooooooooo awesome!!!!!!

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  8. OMG! This is exciting!
    I knew it was twins I knew it =)

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  9. I LOVE IT! They are the most adorable twins I've ever seen!! (wait not, my husband is a twin, I must take that back) I can't believe it....that is so awesome! You are doubley blessed!

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  10. Ha! I knew it :)

    Congrats again!

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  11. My jaw just hit the floor, yay yay yay! I was so sure you were having twins based on your betas but I'm still surprised!

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  12. I keep coming back to look at the little babies :)
    lol
    I love it!

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  13. Now I'm crying all over again! I'm sooooooooo happy for you Shanny. You deserve this so much. Way to go babies!!!!!

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  14. OMG....that is amazing!!! Twice the fun!!

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  15. Aww Shanny and Jeff this is great.
    Congrats times 2 :)

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  16. Congrats! That is sooo exciting!

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  17. Ahhh! How exciting, welcome to the club :)

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  18. I KNEW IT!! I KNEW IT!! :) Well I didn't know you were lying...sneaky sneaky. :) But I had a huge feeling you would have twins. I'm normally pretty good at guessing what my friends are having! So excited for you Shanny! And I have my fingers crossed that I'll be joining you in the twin club very soon. :)

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  19. You are so going to be the best mom to the twins! Yayayayay! I am so excited for you and Jeff :) Doubly so!!!!

    Congratulations :)

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  20. yay this is the best news ever! I wondered if you were when your numbers were so high! congrats, shanny!

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  21. YOU STINKER!!!!!!!

    I'm so so so so so friggen happy for you! Twins!! Just what you wanted. How amazing...prayer DOES work :)

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  22. I thought I saw another sac on that teeny, tiny pic you posted! Sneaky girl - congratulations and best wishes for smooth TWIN pregnancy! Yay!!!!

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  23. i am a twin- most amazing bond ever :)

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  24. Yah!!! That's wonderful! Congratulations x 2!

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  25. Oh my gosh! Congrats!!!!!!!!!!

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  26. Bursting with happiness for you :)

    I'm not one of those people that must be right all the time. However, I am SO FREAKIN GLAD that I was :)

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  27. Aw, honey, I'm so excited for you :) Congratulations again - times two!

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  28. SHANNY!!!!! That is incredible news. I'm so happy for you and Jeff!

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  29. I totally knew you were holding out on us. I was waiting for you to tell the truth! I am beyond thrilled for you!!! Seriously, so excited. I can't wait to find out if you're having boys/girls/both, names, nurseries, symptoms, belly growing, everything!!!!

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  30. Yay!!! I'm so happy for you and Jeff!!! Congrats and I can't wait to hear about both babies beating hearts!!!

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  31. AHHHHHH! YAYAYAYAYA! SO happy for you guys!!

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  32. Shanny, that was very sneaky of you!!!! YAAAAAYYYYY!!! Twins, omg I'm SO excited for you. HUGE CONGRATS!!!

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  33. You have no idea how long it took me to find your blog. The last time I read your blog was the day of your transfer. I woke up this morning with you on my mind and was determined to see if you were pregnant...YAY!!! I am so very happy for you. I am so excited. Congratultations. What a blessing...twins! This is wonderful, wonderful news.

    *Blessed*

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  34. Double wow! Congrats :)
    I'm going to tell my bagel guy about you two now ois it r you four? lol

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  35. I am sooooo super excited for all 4 of you!

    YAY!

    Winks & Smiles,
    Wifey

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  36. My gosh! Can't explain how happy I am for you. Congrats. :)

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  37. Congratulations!
    Congratulations!

    You and Jeff deserve this, wooohooo :)

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  38. Shanny, stop feeling guilty!!!It's awesome you have twins.That is wonderful !!!...
    You'll be a good mother,the better mother for your kids.Stop thinking negative.
    You didn't tell anyone about that. So what? You have the right!Only you decide whatever to tell or not.
    That made this news much more interesting and exciting.
    Congratulations !!!!!

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  39. I am so beyond excited for you! Congratulations. And I don't think you will ever love one baby over the other - that's just not possible. Wishing you many great things - you deserve them all :)

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  40. Wooohoo Shanny! I can't believe this!
    Double congrats!

    Nancy- bump

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  41. I am SOOO excited for you Shanny!!!

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  42. I have been one of those silent "stalkers" of your blog for awhile. Mainly because we had A LOT of problems having our kids and I can relate to all of the in-vitro, infertility, surgeries stuff as well as multiple miscarriages and the death of our daughter..but if you want to read that story and check out our happy ending just send me your e-mail to wendelton@gmail.com.

    Anyway, I guessed you may be playing a trick because having been pregnant with twins twice those are HIGH numbers :) But I understand and I am impressed you are willing to tell I would not tell anyone but my mother in law for months. I am so excited for you guys. Lots of love and support coming your way.

    Wendi :)

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  43. Yay yay YAY! Congrats lady. Two little bean. SO darn exciting!

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  44. Congratulations! I'm so happy for you.

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  45. SCREAM! This is sooooo exciting : )

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