It's Not You, It's Me....

I have recently been given this line.
Well, not in those exact words but let's no get technical, kay?

The company I work for has decided to brake up with me.
Well kind of. The big people decided that my position is no longer necessary to help them with their business. They are WRONG and they will find out soon enough. And no it's not bitterness talking it's just the truth. I work for a huge company- very well known- so for legal reasons I will not be getting into details. Hundreds of us across the country are going to be out of a job so don't go thinking that I'm not a hard worker. If you think that low of me then you think that low of all those other people that none of us know, so behave. We are just victims of this horrible economy.

I've known for a couple of weeks but I suppose that I have been living in denial. They are offering some of us the opportunity to stay for different positions but that's no good. I worked hard to get where I am and I don't want to step down, I simply don't think it makes any sense for me. Besides, the working hours are in no way family friendly so I decided to take whatever pay off they are giving me, spend some quality time with the kids and win the lotto. OK, so that last part was just wishful thinking, in reality I'm considering going back to school. I'm not sure if its a possibility yet since I have the twins and a mortgage to worry about but we shall see. In a way I feel that this is a push from the man above and if I don't take a leap of faith now, then when?

I have until the end of March. At that point I will be joining all of my unemployed peeps and I'm very nervous. I am also very very sad. I cannot believe that I have to say good bye to all of my co-workers and friends. I've worked with them for many years and having to leave is heartbreaking. My life is about to take another big change, am I ready? Nope. Oh Boy.