My first time....

So here I am, writing my first blog, I'm nervous & excited. I wonder if it will be everything I thought it would be?

But wait!

Before I continue.... maybe I should re-think this. I mean do I really want to go ahead with this? What about the consequences? What if my actions force me to make a long-term commitment and I can't keep up with it? or most importantly I don't want to bore anyone to death. I mean that's pretty serious isn't it? Ahhh, nah its not, you'll live I promise. =)

Why am I doing this?

Basically... because I want to, Duh!

O.K, seriously now, I realize that Jeff and I are young, and that we have a long journey ahead of us. I think this would be a great way to save our memories, well my memories really, but I'll share with Jeff. See? you already know something about me, I'm not too greedy. I'll definitely share my memories with him, especially those that I can use to prove him wrong about something, ha! (yes, I have an ulterior motive).

By no means are we an adventurous couple, exciting, or cool, but we are awesome! (Umm, this is my opinion, so maybe you shouldn't believe everything you read). We have been married for 4 years, and together for 5. He proposed 6 months into our relationship... Yes, we were fast, and No I wasn't pregnant, it just proves that I am awesome (but more on our "love story" later). For now, let's just focus on our current project: making a baby. I'm hoping to keep a good journal of what we experience while attempting to expand our family.

So far, I have to say that after 7 months of trying we finally got pregnant in March, but unfortunately I ended up having a miscarriage =(
It is one of the saddest things we've had to go through, and we are still trying to deal with it. I can't stop thinking how one second I was at the top of the world happy and the next second it was all gone. I'm angry that it happened, not at anyone, just angry in general. However, we've made the decision to keep going, and I'm trying to be positive about it. I cannot wait to make my husband a father, anyone who knows him, definitely understands this. He loves kids so much, and he is so loved by all the kids in our family, it broke my heart to tell him that we had lost our baby. One day he will be a wonderful dad, and I'm going to have a vivid recollection of how it happened thanks to this blog.

And of course I will be a wonderful mom too!