Thursday, October 23, 2008

I'm infertile, where is the party?

"Too many things wrong."

That's what my Dr. said to me today. There are too many things wrong with both Jeff and I.

We are now welcomed into the world of infertility.


Nah, I wouldn't be either. Though, it does make life a bit more interesting... somewhat... I think? Who am I kidding? Nothing I come up with will make me feel better right now.

On Monday, CD1, I went to get my blood work done. Spent quite a long time there, they did a few different tests including a 2 hour Glucose test. Imagine my surprise (and my boss's) when I found out I was going to be there for such a long time. Anyway, my Dr. told me that I have a few things: PCOS*, high Prolactin levels**, and something else but I forgot. Also, I didn't respond well to the Glucose testing which she said makes me prone to Diabetes.

On Tuesday, after a couple of hours of porn, Jeff dropped off his "boys" at the lab to be analyzed and made his way into work. Apparently he loves me so much he doesn't want me to feel that its all my fault and decided to have low sperm count and too many white blood cells, this is called leukocytospermia.***

My Dr. said that there is nothing she can do to help us. She said Clomid wouldn't make a difference for us and that its safer to see a specialist. She gave me the number of a Reproductive Endocrinologist which made me smile, its: (000) 000-BABY. I'm not giving you the full number, he is my RE and I'm not sharing... unless you are in NY and need it.

I don't know what to think. Part of me is so freaked out and obviously upset and the other is somewhat relieved. At least now we know what's wrong... I think. We'll have to do a lot more tests with the RE but for now we have an idea and will try to work on it. I don't think my insurance covers infertility in which case I'll have to wait until next year to start treatments. Great isn't it? I get to wait even more. Hey, at least that gives me time for one more AF sometime in the next 2 months. That would make 6 periods for 2008. This is so F*cked up. I guess I'm angrier than I thought.

How the heck do I have one thing that causes high masculinizing hormones and have milk production at the same time? I'm not a guy nor am I pregnant. Seriously? I mean really? Seriously for real?

*PCOS- polycystic ovary syndrome is an endocrine disorder. It is the most common hormonal disorder among women of reproductive age, and is a leading cause of infertility. It causes excessive amounts or effects of androgenic (masculinizing) hormones, irregular or lack of periods and chronic anovulation (lack of ovulation).

**Prolactin- Its best-known function is to promote milk production in lactating (breastfeeding) women. Elevated prolactin levels (called hyperprolactinemia) may interfere with ovulation and menstrual cycle regularity. They may also cause galactorrhea (inappropriate milk secretion) and decreased libido (sex drive).

***Leukocytospermia- when a high white blood cell count in semen is typically over one million leukocytes per milliliter. In large quantities, white blood cells can have a detrimental effect on male fertility. This is because leukocytes cause the oxidation of cells. If you have high numbers of white blood cells in your sperm, this could result in the oxidation of sperm cells, damaging their ability to fertilize an egg.



  1. Oh, I am so sorry. I'm glad you got answers, though, and can move forward with the next steps. I will be thinking of you and sending lots of hugs and baby dust your way! And remember, despite everything, you did get pregnant before! Stay strong and keep doing the baby dance!!!

  2. Shanny,
    I'm so sorry you received this news. I can't imagine the thoughts you've been having since then.

    Don't give up. A is DID get pregnant before so you know it's possible. Have faith and stay strong. And keep us posted with what happens with the RE.

  3. Oh Shanny I'm so sorry... this totally's so unfair. I wish those answers were comforting but I know it's a lot to take. I'm sending you bigs hugs and keep trying for that miracle.

  4. :( I'm sorry...

    Did they say why DH has the high WBC count? My DH had that, too, and then it went away and we never knew why. Hopefully it will be insignificant for you guys, too.

  5. Thanks girls. I honestly don't even know what to think. I know its not the end of the world and that things will work out eventually but it still sucks.

    Jen- I'm honestly not even sure if the Dr. mentioned any reasons. I think my brain stopped working when she said too many things were wrong. I hope its insignificant for him too. She did say that the RE would run new test on us and will explain everything in detail since it wasn't her place nor did she want to do it over the phone. Now that freaked me out!

    We wait and see. :-/

  6. Shanny, I am so sorry to hear those results but I am glad that you went to the dr and finally got some answers. Also you got pregnant before, so it will happen again. I'm sending lots of hugs your way and a bucket load of stickey baby dust.

  7. I'm so sorry girl, but I'm glad you finally have some answers. As crappy as it all is, you can't fix things until you know what needs to be fixed... that healthy baby IS in your future!

    Hugs to you and you're in my thoughts and prayers!

  8. Oh Shanny, sin palabras. Dios tiene una proposito. Yo voy orar para ti y para un milagro en tu vida! Nada es imposible para El. Lo siento mamita!! Yo creo en milagros! Tiene esperanza, tiene fe!!!

    Praying for you.

    Muchisimas gracias por su comment. Eres muy dulce :) Mi espanol necesitas mas practicar, entonces yo voy practicar contigo! ;) jaja

    Dios te bendiga!

    Uno Abrazo para ti!!

  9. I'm very sorry. I hope that you and your husband will get better answers once you go see your RE. Good luck with everything.

  10. Shanny, I'm so sorry to hear your news. But its good that you are going to an RE who can give you more definitive information. And you always hear stories about women who become pregnant after years of infertility treatments. I hope that's you - minus the years of waiting! Keep a positive attitude... it will work out for you :)


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