Before I get down with it, I would like to thank all of you for your kind words. I know I was pretty much a downer but I suppose that was to be expected.
In the slight chance that I may have been perceived as over reacting, let me give you a bit of perspective: this month is a whole year of going to the fertility clinic, I started this whole journey since I was 26.... I'll be turning 29 on Sunday, its been a total of 25 cycles trying (but who is counting?) And now I officially qualify for IVF.
The Dr said that after having 3-4 clomid/IUI cycles, the chances of conceiving goes down. I do react nicely to Clomid, apart from my lining which takes a few extra days to thicken up, I ovulate strongly each time and I produce multiple follies. He recommended IVF but I have to take the injection classes and attend their info session on it before I can go for it.
Since my cycle already started I'll go for a 5th Clomid/IUI while I prepare for IVF, ummm, hopefully I won't need it. I guess I'm not giving up after all. Not surprising right? It was after all my sadness and anger doing the "talking" that day. But now my chin is up and I'm ready to conquer.
I wrote the top portion when I was waiting for my day 3 bloodwork and ultrasound. Less than 2 hours later, things have changed.
Clomid finally caught up with me. I have cyst on my left ovary. I was told they would tell me if I can continue with Clomid depending on my blood results but I just decided against it. I don't want to do anything to hyper stimulate it further. I still cringe when I remember my ruptured cyst in January.
We may or may not try naturally this month. I still have Clomid in my system BUT usually its not advisable to try with a cyst. Dunno yet. Either way, In Vitro Fertilization is on for next month. Yikes!