Thursday, December 3, 2009

I'm 29, now what?

You would think I would be acting more mature. Think again.
I don't want to. I don't feel like it. I just wont. I like basking in my immaturity. It keeps me happy... and/or naive, however you want to look at it. And right now I want to really really act like a child.

I so want to play hooky from work, but just so that I can say I did. No worries, I wont. I may be immature but I can achieve that (very well) and still be responsible. My lab-made-baby is expensive after all.

I think I may need a night light. Jeff has been gone since yesterday for work related crap and I'm all alone. Its my first time evah alone in ANY house. I'm not going to lie, every little noise I heard last night had me skeered. Tonight should be fun, again.

I also want to stamp my feet real hard. Over and over again and refuse profusely to be in the situation that requires IVF. It's hard to accept that I, Shanny, need to have IVF if I want to experience motherhood. What has the world come to? It doesn't make sense. I had the IVF info session on Tuesday and things have been set in motion. I'm even more skeered now. The good thing about IVF? apart from the whole "being able to have a baby" side of it. I get to own a nurse. She belongs to me now and will have to do as I say (or the other way around, I guess), and will have to answer all of my questions. Which is good because I've been wondering a lot of things, like: why is the Sun hot? Things like that, and she has to answer because she is assigned to me and can't escape.

And the biggest thing I want is this:
I want to be at the receiving end of the green envy look that infertiles like myself tend to give ALL pregnant women we see. I want to see them look at my baby bump and give me a scornful look. That's what I want.

So as you can see, I've put all of my 28 years of experience in immaturity into good use at 29.

18 comments:

  1. I promise when you get that bump I will be envious but not scornful lol. Actually Im hoping we both end up with Holiday BFP'S!

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  2. I love your honesty!! How awesome that you have your own IVF nurse...I would take advantage of that too!!

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  4. In three months I am going to be in the 29 club and I am scared!
    Stomp your feet lady, you have every right!

    (I posted a comment and put "in one month" instead of three... I think it's all that crack I've been smoking!! haha <-- kidding on the crack thing btw! lol)

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  5. Girl you can be immature all you want as long as you keep making me laugh! This was hilarious!

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  6. I'll be so envious of you. I'll take a picture of my scornful look and email it to you : )

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  7. I love that you are taking advantage of your years of immaturity to live it up haha

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  8. LMAO Shanny!
    I'm so going to be one to give you the scornful look but ill ve happy for you at the same time!
    Oh and I say you should get that night light lol

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  9. No need to be mature, after all your struggles I think you deserve to act up as a child as much as you want. Sorry you are all alone and scared but I hope your hubs gets home soon!

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  10. I'm so glad you can pull off being responsible and immature at the same time, this was so funny!

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  11. Can you ask her how to just stop being infertile? That might be the question that gives her freedom from you lol
    I think you should stamp your feet all you want, being in this situation is so unfair! And by the way, I admire your immaturity so don't go growing up on us :)

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  12. Happy Birthday Shanny! I know its scay, but I'm glad the IVF ball is rolling. Good luck hun I can't wait to be envious of your belly :)

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  13. I think you have the perfect balance of maturity and immaturity! And you and your soon to be bambino are in my prayers always!

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  14. Happy Birthday! I like your post- its so full of humor and emotion and feeling, its just great. Im always thinking of you- I cannot wait until the day you make others green with envy :)

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  15. I hope that IVF brings you that big ol' baby bump really soon!

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  16. Love your honesty! :) And yes I can't wait til people wish they were me with my cute baby bump. :)

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