Monday, February 8, 2010

I want my "Moments"

My bed rest is over and now its time to get back to work. Boo! I guess its a good thing though. If I'm left to my own thoughts I might just torture myself and who wants that? Not me. My mind keeps spinning with the same thoughts:

I want my moments.
I want my moment in which I'm finally pregnant.
I want my moment in which it doesn't end.
I want my moment in which I experience everything a mother should from beginning to end.
I want my moment in which I want to kick Jeff in the face for putting me through birth pain, though I'm almost sure I wont do it. Almost.
I want my moment in which we both look at our baby with tears in our eyes and just know that everything we've gone through has been worth it.

I need to have my first moment by next week because if I don't get it, all I I know is this:
I WILL SHATTER INTO PIECES.....
I just can't take anymore. I refuse to. This has to be MY moment. It has to.

30 comments:

  1. Shanny, I have great feelings about this one for you! It WILL be your moment. You have to believe it. I'm so excited for you I just can't stand it. You better keep us updated on all those mythical symptoms... =) (wait, was that a twinge you just felt down there?)

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  2. This is YOUR moment Shanny! My fingers are crossed for you guys. We don't want you to shatter :(

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  3. I really hope this is your moment. No one deserves heartache like this. Fingers crossed.

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  4. Your moments are right around the corner, I'm praying that it works out. It has been too long and too much sadness already, hugs!

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  5. Lol I hope you get your urge to kick Jeff too, just don't do it!

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  6. THIS IS YOUR MOMENT. In 9ish months we will be looking at adorable baby picture in this exact spot on this exact blog. Thoughts and prayers and positive thoughts are FLYING in your direction today.

    Huge hugs girlie, this is IT!

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  7. I really hope this is your moment! I am praying that this is it for you and that you will have a baby in your arms in 9 months!!

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  8. Shanny, My fingers and toes are crossed and I am PRAYING this is your moment!! HUGS!

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  9. So wishing all of this for you too, VERY soon!!!

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  10. You have the right to experience all those things, including wanting to hurt Jeff at "that" moment, I'm rooting for you!

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  11. Oh no we don't want you in pieces, we love you whole! So I'm praying extra hard that this is your turn to live those lovely moments :)

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  12. You're tough lady. You will get through it and you will have your moments!! And when you do....EPIDURAL baby! I didn't wanna hit the hubs at all...once I got the drugs anyway. Ah ha ha

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  13. This is your moment. I am pulling for you!! Come on BFP!!

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  14. I really hope this is YOUR moment Shanny!! You deserve it!
    hugs

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  15. Shanny this is IT for you! I just know it! I can't wait to hear about all of your moments and to see pics of your precious baby(babies)!

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  16. Praying that this is YOUR moment!!! I have a good feeling, this has to be it! Lots of postitive vibes!

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  17. You deserve all those moments and MORE!!!! Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  18. PS Had to go private for a bit... hopefully not forever...

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  19. I know Shanny... I agree... it HAS to be.
    Thinking and praying hard for you lovely lady.. seriously - LIKE A CRAZY LADY! (And you know this business is crazy... ccaarrrraaazzzy!) Love you!

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  20. You received an award over on my blog :)

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  21. You deserve this!!! Praying this is your moment! [I truly believe this is :) ]

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  22. I am SO hoping this is the one for you. You deserve all your moments to start NOW! Hang in there!

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  23. ((hugs)) I hope this is your moment!

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  24. Hi Shanny,

    I wanted to thank you for your wonderful blogging. I'm also on the IVF/ICSI round-a-bout and stumbled upon your blog. You put such a lovely spin on the horridness of it all. I'm currently waiting for my "kids" to grow in their little dishes and getting ready for a transfer on Saturday. Like you I'm hoping with all hope that everything will be fabulous this time.
    I'm sending you positive vibes because although I don't know you, I do know the feelings you are going through. A big virtual hug from me and speak firmly to those two little embryos.. Stay put and grow well!

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  25. I have such a good feeling that this really will be your moment, you SO deserve it. Thinking of you!!!

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  26. Thinking of you honey. SO hoping you get your moment asap!!!

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  27. Just got caught up on your story...Congrats on your successful transfer! I hope this works out for you, as I can only imagine how emotionally overwhelming the treatments and meds are. Thinking good, sticky thoughts for you and your blastocysts!

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  28. Oh, Shanny, I want those moments for you too!! (And me, too) Praying this is your cycle!

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  29. I understand so much of what you write and am keeping fingers/toes crossed and prayers coming your way!

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