Monday, December 1, 2008

December 2nd, 2008....My Due Date

How am I supposed to feel? Frustrated? Sad? Angry? Horrified that I’m not at least pregnant yet… nine months later? Instead I’m waiting for AF. Surprisingly I don’t feel any of that. All I feel is empty.

No baby for Christmas. No pregnant belly for new years. And honestly I’m having a POAS withdrawal so I don’t even have that satisfaction. We are obviously not trying right now because we are waiting on our results so I haven’t been Peeing on any sitcks. Maybe I’ll do that on Christmas morning just for something TTC related. It’ll be an ovulation stick though; there is no need to waste a good pregnancy test.

My stomach is completely empty. Well kinda… I did eat a lot over the weekend with a good jump-start on Thanksgiving. It should be illegal how much I ate. Either way, the emptiness I feel sucks. Expecting AF tomorrow to remind me how non-pregnant I am sucks more. Boo.


  1. I know that empty feeling. It sucks. Sometimes you wish you could just feel SOMETHING. The feelings will come and go throughout this crazy, stupid, frustrating journey. ((hugs))

    And I completely understand what you mean about the "stalkerish" feeling you can get when you comment sometimes. I hate that feeling.

  2. I feel your emptiness. I actually had my first miscarriage on Dec 1. I feel empty so many times too, but I always think that everything happens for a reason. We have to be very strong in this journey. I know that we will ALL be mothers.

  3. I am so so sorry. This breaks my heart. You will be a mother someday, a wonderful mother.

  4. I'm so sorry. We never forget the baby we miscarry, emptiness is a new way to describe that horrible feeling, its fitting. ((Hugs))



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