Today's news is better than last.
Not perfect. But better. This will be long...
We met with the genetic counselor and had a long discussion with her. Luckily they received my bloodwork results that test for genetic abnormalities and they were able to give us a better diagnostic possibility in combination with last week's NT scan. Unfortunately its not the best way to get results when carrying twins because there is no way to test the chances individually for them, so what they do is they take the results and split it in the middle. Regardless, I like what I heard.
According to the combined results, which is not conclusive in any one's case, we only have 3-5% chances of something going wrong. We were told that in such large population that its still a BIG chance, but Jeff and I prefer looking at the other 95-97% chances of things being just fine. Of course the only way to get a conclusive report is by doing the CVS at this point but we decided not to do it. I don't want to mess with my babies, what if they are fine (which they are) and I fall in that 1% of cases that does the procedure and causes a miscarriage? Thanks, but no thanks.
I've had enough miscarriages and Jeff and I already decided that we did not want to terminate regardless of the results. They say if we knew something was wrong we can prepare, etc, etc, etc but imagine how much stress and sleepless nights I will have the rest of the pregnancy. I, personally, could not deal. Lots of strong women can deal and prepare for whatever situation comes their way but I can't, all I know is that I trust God and that I will love my babies no matter what so I don't need to drive myself insane.
What we did do was request the 2nd NT scan to see if they agreed with the last one. Both readings were normal THANK GOD. But! we were told that it doesn't change the first reading and that they still have to go by the first one. Hey, as far as I'm concerned that first tech did it incorrectly, she definitely did not do it like today's tech AND its not because we disagreed with her measurements. Its just that we saw what we saw and what we saw was her measuring the space between the baby's neck and the sac. Today's tech did both babies the same way: a little line in between the neck and guess what? They were good measurements so I love this tech, her name is Ana and she is the best! No one can tell me otherwise.
Just to be on the side of precaution, they are testing Jeff and myself for chromosomal abnormalities. If those are not good the babies have 25% chance of inheriting the abnormality, in which case we might decide to do the Amnio to test them for definite results. If our results are good, we are not doing anything. But how disappointing will it be at our ages to find out we are slow? Seriously, right now I rather be ignorant about my lack of brain cells. That's just me though =)
Oh, oh, oh! They are measuring 13 weeks and 4 days and I'm currently 12 weeks and 5 days. Do your thing babies, do your thing!!!!!
I normally wouldn't post on this day but I had to because of my results. I could do it tomorrow but that just makes me a coward.
Today marks 6 years since we lost my 6 year old cousin and I cannot post without mentioning him, which is why I've avoided blogging on April 15th in the past.This is a topic I can't bring myself to ever write about but since I'm posting I must acknowledge him.
We love you Ajay.
You will forever be in our hearts.