I can't believe that I go back to work on Monday. Can't they just pay me to be a happy employee? And by happy employee I mean a happy stay at home Mom. We all know that a happy employee is way more productive than an unhappy one. Even if it means that I'm more productive at home, which doesn't help them BUT it doesn't change the fact that I would be happier and more productive-er*, does it?
I am sad to leave the babies but I'm a little excited to go back. I miss my people, they are pretty special. Obviously they are not as special as my kids but I guess I'll take what I can get, at the very least they wont spit up on me. Me on the other hand? I might spit up on them just for the mere fact that they are taking me away from my babies. Don't worry I wont get fired... I'll fake a stomach bug and say sorry with big innocent eyes. But you and I will know the truth. ::::evil laugh::::
The babies are going to be in the best of hands, my sister is going to watch them for me. Luckily she lives a few blocks from my job so I'll be close enough. Sadly I wont be able to see them for lunch. I only get 30 minutes and I need to use that time to pump and eat. I wonder if I'll cry. I don't feel like crying right now but I did cry 2 weeks ago when I got the return date. I wonder if they'll cry for me. I don't want them to. Well, OK, I kinda want them to shed a little tear just so that I know they love me and want absolutely no one but me, but I don't want them to really really cry. Maybe just a little sad mouth. Is that mean? That I want them to miss me? I just need something to tell me that this is not a one way relationship, ya know?
*Yes, I know this is not a word... yet. Jeff would say this is a new word to add to my collection of Shannyisms. But me? I say this is a perfect example of my point. I've been happy at home and became so productive I made up a new word for all to enjoy: productive-er. No need to thank me for such an awesome addition to the English language just send me a dollar each time you use it and we are even.
It's going to be hard at first but I think you're going to find a nice little balance with work and your little people!! I am thinking of you... so happy that you have your sister so close. The beautiful babes will be in good hands and that's all that really matters :)
ReplyDeleteIt's totally normal that you want some evidence that your relationship with the twins is not one-way. The smile they give you when you pick them up from work should remind you that they ADORE you!
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, it will be hard. My first day was sooooooo rough. But knowing that my daughter was with my sister made it a little easier. I'm so glad you and the kids have a similar arrangement and the fact that she lives close to your job makes it even better.
The first day back to work was sooo hard for me. But my sister watches my daughter and that made it less stressful.
I think you should definitely spit up on them haha
ReplyDeleteYou are so hilarious! I'm sure it will be hard but if you can carry 2 babies to term and breastfeed them this long then you can definitely survive going back to work. I don't think its mean you want them to be sad for you being gone, its normal! Good luck on Monday!
"Evil laugh" I love it LOL
ReplyDeleteYou will be fine! The first couple of weeks will be hard but you are going to get used to being away from your lovely babies during the day as time goes on. I cried every single day my first week when I returned and if you have to cry, do it, don't hold back take 5 minutes to cry and get yourself together or you'll be even worse trying to keep it in, there is no shame in that.
I think mothers everywhere should sign a petition to get paid for staying home, the more productive-er we are the brighter the future of our babies lol
Glad that your little babes will be with family that will make things a little easier...but I cant imagine how hard it will be..Im already thinking about it now and dreading going back and hes not even here yet:(
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking about you on Monday! You know all will be great, it will just be hard at first. Who would want to leave those two precious little faces anyway?!?!
ReplyDeleteI have to admit I was a little glad when they seemed to have missed me. It takes awhile to get used to, but I have found that going to work eventually feels good and balanced, it's almost like some me time, except you make money! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteOMG lady, you are so funny! I think that they deserve no less than a spit up from you for making you leave your home to get paid and be productive for them. I will be thinking of you and your adorable babies tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteGood luck today on your first day back. I am wishing you very few tears (just enough) and a very productive day. You'll do great.
ReplyDeleteOne marriage ceremony we attended, the officiant used the word “agree” in place of “vow” or “promise.” I found it moving because it was more down to earth – it’s the same word, but without the rose colored glasses. It also focused on the fact that the wedding vows are about our future ACTIONS, rather that our future FEELINGS.
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