Mommy Mode? Anyone?

One week from today...
Yes, it's Thanksgiving... but stop thinking about you for a minute and concentrate on me, kay? Thanks!

So, one week from today, I turn 23... you can flip those two numbers around if you want to keep me honest, whatever.  But, here comes my honesty: I don't feel like 32 is right. I have no idea where the past 2 years went. Last I know, like for sure, was that I was a humongous pregnant 29 year old, then like 1 1/2 month after the twins were born I supposedly turned 30 and then I forgot everything else. Conveniently you might say, I just think it was survival mode or I'm just plain stuck in my own mind. (Yeahh, probably the later choice.) Or, OR...

Or is it a Mommy mode thing that's out there and no one told me about? I swear, I feel like time stopped for me. Not for the kids though, never that. With them time flies at Cheetah speed, they are two so obviously time does past... but for me too? Really? I'm so engrossed in them that I think my life is all about them, which it is, but I probably shouldn't forget my own life. I don't remember anything that I wanted to do before 30.. or before 32 which is the actual number... not that I had a list going but that isn't the point.

I'm probably not even fun anymore... I probably only talk about them (like right now) and I have no idea I'm doing it. I probably would be teeny tiny bit more interesting with a little more life experience if I was working but I'm enjoying them way too much to actually care about that part. I'm all about playing with them, teaching them, and changing their diapers. Fun, yes. But I should probably try to accomplish more, no?

I suppose I have a lot of catching up to do in order to get to my right age... the again, who the heck wants to feel older? Not that I want to look back and think of myself of just a Mommy stuck in a Mommy's world but for now the 30's seem far, far away... and that feels good.