I had a date with my ex-lover

After Jeff left for work yesterday, I hurried up to go meet up with DC.

It was really nice to catch up and to get intimate once again, you know, for old times sake. It really only lasted about 30 seconds but it was wonderful.

DC a.k.a. Dildo Cam and I had an ongoing affair for quite some time. You may or may not remember reading about it, all I know is I felt like he was seeing other women so I cut him out of my life completely... until yesterday. And let me tell you, it was the best encounter yet!

Before we became, ahem, intimate, I did get a chance to have a normal over the tummy ultrasound. The tech (Heather) showed me the babies and I can tell by their expressions that they were quite happy to see mommy. How do I know? Well because those 2 fresh kids of mine did what they always do: showed me their little "thingys" first! As soon as they are born, I'm going to have to teach them to stop flashing people. Wicked little twins!

Now back to the good stuff, she also checked my cervix from the tummy ultrasound, which was the main reason for my appointment, and was happy with it. But its mandatory to do a vaginal ultrasound at this point in pregnancy to see what's up with the cervix. Before the dildo cam made his entrance, she was telling me that my cervix was "Gorgeous", that in all her years she never saw such a long cervix and that it was "absolutely stunning". Why thank you, I'm pretty proud myself :)

She then left to get a doctor while I undressed to better flash them (I learned from my kids), and when they returned she showed the doctor my cervix and he said "wow, that's a great cervix!" she in turn responded "its impressive, isn't it?", and they smiled at each other while I blushed. Less than 30 seconds I tell ya and good bye dildo cam.

By the way, a long cervix means that there is a GREAT chance of pre-term labor NOT happening, which is wonderful for a twin pregnancy. On the other hand, a long cervix also means a greater chance of having to have a C-section (for single or multiple pregnancy), which just upped my already high chances of that happening. I guess we will see.... as long as they are born healthy, I'll take whatever comes my way....... And then I'll put some clothes on them so they can cut back on the flashing =)

Now Playing: 4D Babies... with extra scenes... (get your own popcorn)

Who wants to see see our Alien Babies in 4D?????

ME!

And JEFF!

Ok, that's a given I know, but now you can see them too!

We went yesterday to a 4D ultrasound facility to get video and pics of the twins at 21 weeks (out of pocket), and it includes another session later on in the pregnancy, cool right? (say yes)

And because we are so nice and very proud parents we are sharing with the Internet world. Admission ticket: $0.00. But it will take up your time so I'm giving you some options...

You can see:

1-The videos we took so that you can hear all the madness that we were saying. They are long so I don't expect you to watch them.

I'm not including the DVD given to us because the file is way too big.

Or

2-The bonus: pics right on your screen of the babies and my 19 & 20 weeks belly pics.

You are welcome =)

Option #1:

Starring: Our Twins!

Background commentary provided by:

Ultrasound technician

Jeff

Shanny

Jeff's mom

My mom and dad

My sister Jenny.

The first video is our son.

The second video is our daughter:

Option #2:

Our Daughter

Our Son

My 19 week belly pic

My 20 week belly pic

I know I'm pregnant but am I REALLY pregnant? Like really, really?

Today I'm 20 weeks or 5 months pregnant, allegedly......

Even though I'm more than halfway there (for twins), I cannot believe that I am pregnant. In my head I still don't know that I am pregnant, Ok, I know but I don't know know. So far I haven't experienced that "holy crap" moment....

Not when I was puking my guts out.
Not when I see my belly growing about an inch every second.
Not when I prick my fingers & follow a strict diet to deal with Gestational Diabetes.
Not when I pee a million times a day and night. Especially night.
Not when I feel them moving.
Not when I see them during the ultrasounds.
Not at all.

I'm just here, easy peasy growing two humans like nothing happened. And I do mean that. I feel like I'm one of the most graceful pregnant women out there, of course the fact that I don't "know I am" might have something to do with it, but I am pretty good considering....I think. Am I looking for a pat on the back for being a good girl? Not really, but I wouldn't mind it.... (Jeff). I'm just so blessed and thankful for these babies that I imagine if anyone asked me how I was doing while puking I'd be giving them the biggest (disgusting) smile of my life with two thumbs up. That being said, I'm not into puking anymore so don't be scared to ask.

I wonder, would I have been like this had I not struggled with infertility for so long? I probably don't want to know the answer.... I just need to get myself in gear and knock it into my head that I am expecting. And if you think its bad that I don't know I am pregnant don't even ask about the fact that they are: A- Twins and B- Boy and Girl. I mean, get outta here! There is no way, no way!!!

Of course none of that stops me from being scared. I haven't made one purchase for them yet, not one. Don't get me wrong I'm incredibly attached and in love but I guess I feel like it would be a jinx, I don't know. I can't exactly blame any of this on pregnancy brain or even my prolactin brain tumor, my brain is just plain twisted. I'm petrified of making a commitment of something I don't know even know is happening to me, God help me!

THE WINNER IS...... and completely unrelated, check out my kids too!

Comment number 14

aka:

Tiffany!!!

She is now the proud owner of this ipod cozy:

Lots of thanks to my sister-in-law Zaira for making it for me (and Tiffany)

If you feel left out feel free to check out her etsy store, just clicky on her name =)

Oh, and check out the new u/s pics from today at 19 weeks 4 days

to the top right of your screen ~~~~>

Everything is great:

 Girl's heartbeat was at 130bpm

Boy's heartbeat was at 136bpm

And once again congrats to Tiffany!!!

Giveaway!!!! And one more belly pic....

Here is the awesome iPod/iPhone/Cell/Camera holder I'm giving away, or its official name iPod Cozy. I just had to mention all the other items because it works wonderfully for all of them =)

It's so convenient and I love it so much that I figured I should share it with the world... or one more person in the world really, lets not get technical. All you have to do is leave a comment and you'll automatically be entered, unless of course you want to leave a comment but don't want to be entered, just specify that please. I'll announce the winner on Wednesday evening.

And here I am at 19 weeks 1 day, once again in raggedy clothes, which as embarrassing as it is I must post it because sometimes the best pics are the random ones, no? And don't judge my no-makeup tired face, its not allowed! This was just for Jeff and myself but since

 I AM ALL BALL,

Jeff said I had to share...

And no, it was not planned. I just happened to be wearing a Knick's T-shirt

with the saying when we decided to do a bare belly pic.

As you can imagine we couldn't stop laughing after we saw how perfectly it went with the belly.

Who knows? Maybe I do have a little

NBA or WNBA player in there =)

Belly pics for week 18!

Before I post belly pics for week 18, I'm going to rave about a little gift I got from my sister-in-law Zaira. Its this cute little ipod holder (which fits my Droid perfectly also I might add) that has a little wrist band and allows me to go out and walk around with NO purse, awesome!

This one is mine, but you can get your own... read on..

And because I found it SOOO convenient I decided to do a little GIVEAWAY for one of my awesome readers. My very first giveaway! And YOU might just be the lucky winner =)

She has an Etsy store if you want to check out some of her items (she is working on more) its to the

right of your screen ~~~~~>

And the adorable models you see are my nieces =) you don't get to see the elder one's face but trust me, she is also adorable!

Now, the belly pics!

Do not mind my raggedy clothes I was watching TV and decided to look at my belly

and Jeff caught me doing it. Or maybe I posed, who knows. From my view I thought my belly was

big, but from the picture? Holy cow! Its HUGE!

And this one is the official one, taken minutes ago, my little tenants sure know

how to make room in there!

Ewwww.....Only in New York!

First I'm going to let you know that I'm feeling better, but no thanks to what I just witnessed.... I'm back to being sick to my stomach...

Let me set this up:
I'm at work, its around 2pm, I sit next to huge window and my view includes the subway. I can see people going and coming all the time, but never this...

An elder man comes out with his back to me, thank God, and proceeds to give himself a handjob. A freaking handjob! In the daytime! On a public street! And did I or my co-worker stop watching? NO. We were staring with our jaws to the floor, wondering if what we were seeing was really happening. Ummm, it was. Thankfully it didn't last long.

Here is my thing, if I kept thinking "ewww, disgusting!" Why didn't I turn my head away? Please tell me I'm not really a bad person.... would you have looked? Keep in mind, I didn't have a frontal view so I'm not that sick in the head..... right?

::hanging head in shame::