An Update from Jeff

First of all, I want to thank each of you for being there for my wife and supporting our journey to becoming parents.

Shanny asked me to write to you because she can't right now.

Today so far has been a very tough and sad day. Many of you know that this morning we were going to the R.E. for another blood test and the first sonogram to see if things were progressing along.

Shanny's back has been really bothering her, but with the progesterone supplements this was no surprise. My surprise was that she woke me around 3:30 a.m. this morning to let me know that she was having serious sharp agonizing pain in the right side of her lower abdomen. She was crying, told me to get up, and that we should go to the hospital. That freaked me out, especially because if you know Shanny, those are words that would never come out of her mouth.

Once in the ER, her vitals were taken (blood, blood pressure etc.) and we had a sonogram done to see if there was a possible ectopic pregnancy situation. The doctor saw no sac, either in the uterus, the right ovary, and could not find the left ovary, but since the pain was in the right side, he saw no evidence of an ectopic pregnancy and he commented that the lining in the uterus looked good. However, no sac yet - and that is a big concern obviously.

Unfortunately, the hcg level from the blood test came back at only 350. Last Sunday, it was 300 - so this is a bad sign :( Shanny's pain had gotten worse as the hours passed, and they finally gave her something - Tylenol. However, that was not gonna do the trick, so they finally gave her morphine with the IV drip.

She feels better now, still in pain, but manageable. They are admitting her for observation and will continue more tests, probably give her another ultrasound and continue to monitor her betas. The concerns are: a) ectopic pregnancy, b) cyst, and c) possible appendix issues (haven't tested her for that yet). It wasn't bad cramps or gas, but substantial pain in the abdomen that is constant and doesn't allow her to sit or lay down any particular way for very long.

As much as we "sort of" tried to disconnect from this pregnancy until we saw something "concrete" - we got attached, very much so, again to the idea of our own little baby since we got our BFP. Shanny will tell you that I am hopelessly hopeful, so I'm praying for a little miracle from my man Gee Oh Dee. But the reality is, most likely, that we are going to experience another painful loss.

Thank you for always reading, responding, and supporting this blog. It is so important and a great release for my wife. I read it too, and check all the responses too. It means the world to the both of us. Please keep us in your prayers. I'm sure she'll will write you soon.

Now, it's time to charge the I-Touch and get her some books to read.

- Jeff a.k.a. Shanny's Husband

Wifey Bonita, you are my everything and I love you more than you'll ever know. We will get through this, and come out even stronger on the other side. I love you, I love you, I love you...

Your Mucho Macho Muchacho :)