Feliz Cumpleanos Mi Amor!!!!

I figured I could wish you a happy b-day in Spanish this time. It's proof that I love you in both languages.... almost like multiple loves just for you, lucky guy!

I want to wish you a few things:
-May you always love your wife...
-May you never get upset with her...
-May you spoil her rotten....
-and may you... umm, maybe I should focus on you a little more..What ya think?
Ok for real now:

-I hope you have a wonderful birthday (I already had a little chitchat with the Yankees and they understand the importance of winning tonight.)
-I hope that this will be the year you become the awesome Dad that you were meant to be... who knows maybe we already saw our baby this morning in one of the 3 eggies =)
-I hope you know that 35 is very young still. Just wait until next year and you'll see what I mean.
-Good luck in your crazy new adventure, I know you'll be great =)
-This one is a fact not a wish: I love you.

A block or two

Right about now I'm suffering from writer's block. It doesn't seem like I have anything to say, except of course that I have nothing to say. Then again, maybe my problem is that I have too much to say but nothing appropriate, you already have an idea thanks to my previous post but you don't need any disturbing mental image so I won't go there.

My other block, speaking from the past, is in my uterus. As of Sunday I have 3 hard headed eggs in the running to becoming my child. I go back tomorrow to see how they are progressing and most importantly how my lining is behaving this time around. I'm assuming that my IUI's will be this weekend, so I'm hoping that any blockage my uterus is holding against me is gone by then. At least it should be gone as a gift for Jeff. His birthday is Thursday and he only turns 35 once, so what better present than a hatched eggie that wants to be fertilized by the birthday boy?

You know what's sexy?

A girl on Clomid. Why? well.... lemme see.... And this is just my own experience in all of my 4 months on it: A girl on Clomid is sexy because....

1. The hot flashes just make you want to rip your clothes off. No matter where you are.
2. It makes you look like you are constantly blushing. The blood rising to your face is oh so glowy!
3. The sweat dripping down your back, again... no matter where you are, gives you the clingy clothes look. Perfect while at work. Just perfect.
4. The bitchiness attitude is pure confidence from a woman who knows what she wants. (rip her clothes off)
5. The emotional tantrums crying moments are adorable and make people want to cuddle you. Just don't get too close....
6. And then we have the awesome ovaries! Constantly reminding you that they are being stimulated, painfully and bloatingly stimulated, giving you such hope that you forget all of the above and smile your sweaty bitchy red face off with everyone. Because you just know that its working.

So  yeah, Clomid girls are sexy because who doesn't like a sweaty happy girl? By the way, feel free to replace the word "sexy" with "crazy", it's equally fitting.

And Now I Present Clomid...

Ding, ding, ding, ding...

You hear that ovaries? That's the bell warning you that Clomid round 4 is here and you should be afraid, very afraid. This time the dose goes up to 100mg, no more weak, sad, poor little 50mg, nope... the big guy is here to finish you off so you better watch it! Do as I say and you won't get hurt, overstimulated maybe but not hurt. I think. Now I understand why some athletes need the extra help of steroids, I feel like I'm in their shoes right now... though my way is legal and I'm not in any sports... Anyway, all we want to do is win.

So ovaries, I have my boxing globes on with same trigger shot, same IUI, same husband but with extra drugs to fight you to the end. It's on!

So You Think You Can...

Dance    Dance   Dance...

I'm so glad I went to see the show, it was the best pick me up. We had really really good seats so I was able to see all my favorite dancers up close and personal... kinda... and I can tell you: they are all very skinny and muscular, AND can shake their groove thing.

Not sure who watches the show but to see the dances in person were really amazing. I was so touched when I saw the cancer and the addiction dance (I love the song Gravity), I found them to be very powerful performances. And who can forget the butt dance? too cute. I was very happy to see that Phillip and Caitlin were included in the tour along with the top ten dancers. I got some pictures but not much, I um, forgot to charge the camera.... I was too busy being sad. I can kick myself sometimes, I was so close that the pics would have been great, ah well. Here are the few that I did get:

Randi, Kapono, Ade, Kayla, Evan, Jason, Brandon

Evan, Randi, Janette in the spotlight, Kapono, Caitlin

Evan, Jeanine (winner), Caitlin, Melissa

Jeanine, Phillip, Janette, Ade

Phillip, Brandon, Caitlin

And if you are really a fan then you'll know who Ryan is, and Oh My God! Who is that with him? Oh yeah, that would be me =)

He gave me a card with a link of A Dance for Life, which I think you should ckeck out. Its in support of DRA.. Dancers Responding to Aids. Clicky here, its worth it!

You know what seems to make the world go round?

All of my negatives.

Or at least they make for strong contributing factors, we wouldn't want the world to stop now would we? Apparently giving me a split second of happiness would cause chaos, but let there be no fear, it will continue to spin with no interruptions... at least for one more month...

And if you know me, sorry but no, I don't want to talk.

12 Days Post IUI

Thought it was time to update. It's the polite thing to do.

I wouldn't want anyone (Mom & Jen especially) thinking that I was rude and that I was holding back information from you. I know you are just dying to know what's going on with my uterus. Well here is the big update: I don't know.

Well maybe I do know a few little things, like:

• I'm not having as much cramps as I usually do at this point. They come once in a blue to torture my emotions but apart from that, not much at all.
• My boobs are not as painful as usual. I know cause I've given them a fair amount of squeezing. I had to test them to make sure.
• I'm going on Wednesday to get my blood test done to find out whether Jeff and the Dr. managed to knock me up or not.
• I'm going to the So You Think You Can Dance show Wednesday night. And I know this has nothing to do with my uterus, but if I don't update my test results, you'll know why.

So there. You are as informed as I am.  And maybe you are not as anxious as me but now you know what I know. Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go have a lil chit chat with God... again....

Kid On A Leash!

I already know I'm going to be a good mom. Unlike a lot of mothers I see at work, which is customer oriented, I'm going to put a leash on my kids.

It drives me crazy how these ladies will just let the kids run around and not pay attention to them. Kids have fallen down our stairs, gone out the door, made a mess of our brochures by throwing them all over the lobby, hit other kids, roll on the floor while the mothers are standing with their backs to them. When we tell them to watch their kids they get all insulted but when something happens to them, we get the dirty looks as if we are responsible for what happened. These things will NOT happen to me.

I will be getting them cute little collars with their names on them and put it on their tiny little necks, with a leash connected to me. The girl's collar will even have glitter. And if they attempt to detach themselves, cause you know kids are smarter these days, they will get a little jolt of shock. That will teach them to behave. I might even sell these collars with leashes to all the other responsible mothers out there.

I'm kidding anyway; I'm not going to shock my kids. I wouldn't do that. I'll just tie their hands up so they can't detach the leash. That's all.

Then again, I expect no one will really like my idea. Fine! I'll just practice the evil mommy look that works so well, and hold on to their hands for dear life.... Unless I can make an invisible leash....hmmm....

Over The Top!

Jessica  just honored me with the Over The Top Award! I couldn't be more thankful, Jessica you rock girl!!

Here are the rules:
1. You Can Only Use One Word. ( I failed )
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers
3. Alert them that you have given them this award.
4. Have Fun!

The Fun Part:
1. Where is your cell phone? Right in front of me.
2. Your hair? Long.
3. Your mother? Awesome.
4. Your father? Sweet.
5. Your favorite food? Italian.
6. Your dream last night? None.
7. Your favorite drink? Alcoholic? Margarita. Regular? Water.
8. Your dream/goal? Easy: becoming a mommy.
9. What room are you in? Home office.
10. Your hobby? Reading.
11. Your fear? Death.
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Vacation with Jeff and the kids =)
13. Where were you last night? Home.
14. Something that you aren't? Rich =(
15. Muffins? Blueberry.
16. Wish list item? No more miscarriages.
17. Where did you grow up? Venezuela.
18. Last thing you did? Finished "The Lost Symbol"
19. What are you wearing? Um, clothes?
20. Your TV? Recording "How I met your mother" and "Heroes"
21. Your pets? None.
22. Friends? Favorite TV show!
23. Your life? Good.
24. Your mood? Neutral.
25. Missing someone? My lost babies.
26. Vehicle? Suzuki Grand Vitara
27. Something you're not wearing? Pajamas.
28. Your favorite store? Target for knick knocks.
29. Your favorite color? Blue.
30. When was the last time you laughed? Last night.
31. Last time you cried? I don't remember!
32. Your best friend? Jeff
33. One place that I go to over and over? My bed?..or the movies!
34. One person who emails me regularly? My Mother-in-law
35. Favorite place to eat? My couch in front of the TV!... or Chili's (Love their 2 for $20 specials)

Recipients
1. Amber
2. Wanderluster
3. A H.I.T.
4. Cupcakes with Nic
5. Elizabeth
6. Lindsey

Impregnated? I better be or else....

As I type, I'm creating life. My eggie should have been fertilized by now. No, I'm not "hoping" that it was fertilized, I *know* it was. Cause otherwise? I'm going to have a titty attack. So unless someone, anyone, everyone wants to deal with my tantrum in 2 weeks I suggest you get to sending me a lot of good luck, thank you very much.

My back to back IUI's were done yesterday and this morning. The Dr said they went well and was happy with my follicle sizes, which were 26mm and 29mm. Jeff's guys were 27 million on day 1 and 20 million on day 2 with 91% motility both times, this made the Dr even happier. He even told Jeff "great job" to which Jeff replied: "thanks, its because I wore my suit for the occasion" and then they both laughed proudly, men! This comment left Jeff in the best of moods, he was grinning from ear to ear...never mind that another man was busy impregnating me. It's all good as long as he gets a compliment from the other guy. Lovely.

Now, let's see if this "third time charm" really works. By the way, why didn't anyone warn me that Lucky Charms were so darn sweet? I couldn't even finish my first bowl! But since I didn't want to jinx myself after saying that I would be eating it for good luck, well I've been eating it... A little bit. If I don't follow through with my word God knows that would be the reason I don't get pregnant this cycle. All I know is that I'm not messing my chances just because there is some extra sugar rush in a bowl of cereal.